For me depression involves a lot of helplessness about the mundane. Over the weekend I woke up and sobbed uncontrollably because I was sleepy, which lead to more tears because I was too sleepy to clean cat vomit off an ottoman and even more tears because I was allowing my child to watch YouTube videos of toy product reviews because I was too sleepy and weepy to play with him. Followed an hour later by more tears because I was not cooking anymore. Then the Supreme Court, our lizard’s health, not getting a baby ferret and then finally…NUMB. Blank stare, no words, absent, not even observing while watching. The warm blanket of depression wrapped me up.
Ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone.

I’m glad we live in a world that allows you to share when you feel depressed, comfortable in the knowledge that you’ll find support and not judgement. My heart goes out to you. I wish you didn’t have to bear this burden. Love and hugs from far away. Yes! A big hug! You said hugs help.
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