I have found a new past time – watching medical procedures on YouTube. Basically anything being extracted – black heads, tonsil stones, impacted sinuses or ears, cyst draining – 100% in control, 100% absolute resolution.

It is black and white. Infected and clean. Full of puss and then empty and stuffed with white sterile gauze. Where others see disguising infection and feel nauseated – I see absolution and a sense of immediate relief.